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Please forgive me if this comes off sounding ignorant or dismissive, but: how does one get into therapy? I mean, the why/how/whos of it all. Is it to talk to someone who won't judge you, and how is that different from talking to a close friend? Do they give you advice? How do you find one? How do you know you've reached a tipping point that it's a good idea to get one?

The fertility clinic suggested that I talk to someone about donor eggs; I assume that's because they can give me some more medical information, as well as tools and scripts for the future.

But I also want to find a therapist for the Emperor, hopefully someone with experience working with gifted kids who can help him with his presumed spontaneous existential depression, or what we've taken to referring as his Bad Thoughts: what's the point of life if everyone's going to die? How can we be happy? How do we find meaning?

This self-awareness thing can be a royal pain in the ass.
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Ever since seeing "The Avengers" (twice!) during opening weekend, my brain has been All Avengers, All the Time. Half my open tabs are Avengers-related.

Like, the latest Avengers party note on ONTD. Many, many hours were lost today to refreshing and saving off a crapton of GIFs. (It makes my heart twinge nostalgically for the crazy days of ONTD Star Trek, which was the last movie I fell this hard far. *sniff*)

There's this great analysis of screen time per Avengers character. How rocking is it that Black Widow is a close third behind the near-tie of Captain America and Iron Man?

Speaking of Black Widow, I must shamefully confess that I have never been up on Avengers canon (I was mainly an X-Men fan, and that was years ago), so with everyone dropping oblique references to the Red Room and Winter Soldier, I really appreciated this brief history on the subject.

Avengers icons, anyone? Lovely pieces there, but my stubborn "My way!" impulse means I'll probably wind up trolling through my *mumblety-hundred* MB of Avengers images and make some myself. Does that happen to anyone else?

I'm following multiple Avengers WIPs, guys. I never do WIPs. Except now. *sigh*

At least it keeps me distracted from the TV shows I killed off with my curse this year - Chuck (in denial - still haven't watched the finale), The Secret Circle, and Ringers. None of them were heartbreaking, but I did want to know what would happen next.

How about you all? Hooked by Avengers yet? Shipping anyone? Excited or crushed by the fates of your favorite TV shows? Inquiring minds want to know!
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I'm going to the Stargate con in Vancouver to see the Hewletts and my fangirl peeps, WAHOOOOOOO!!!! And some other stars too, I suppose. ;)

I've been obsessing over it so hard, you don't even know. (Except maybe a couple of you, like [livejournal.com profile] mercury973, who's gotten about 50 emails from me - sorry!)

The sticking point has been the airfare. I live within driving distance of a bunch of airports, but what with gas prices rising faster than Atlantis from the sea bottom plus post-con fatigue, I didn't want to drive more than an hour or so.

But today, oh frabjous day, I scored a flight for almost $100 cheaper than I've been seeing, with reasonable departure times. (The flights will be looooong, but that's what portable electronics are for, right?)

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Now I have to get cracking on a vid. I have no idea why Creation needs 40 days to review submitted entries, other than their general policy to screw with people.

Who's going? Who has tickets for what? Who knows the best places to stalk for cheap gold tickets? Oh, and who still has space in their hotel room? I swear I'm an excellent roommate. *grin*

The two-month countdown begins!
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I am so tickled by the responses to my poll. (Apologies to the LJers for having it only available on DW.) I appreciate that people answered my nosy questions, as I love seeing who's reading, and getting an idea of what's going on in your lives, fannish and elsewise.

I find it funny that the only fandom listed that didn't get any love was "La Femme Nikita". Even "Phineas and Ferb" got some responses! (Who's with me in shipping Ferb/Vanessa?) Also, you all know me too well, in that "You left a bunch of entries off this list, didn't you?" got a ton of clicks. Considering that I've spent a HYOOGE portion of my life watching TV and movies...yeah, that could have been a perilously long list.

As for the questions posed:

Me: Shouldn't you be working now?

Yes. Yes I should. But my brain is evidently on Spring Break with the Emperor. *jealous*

[personal profile] kate: WHY ARE YOU NOT WATCHING LEVERAGE OMG.

I want to! I want to really badly! I think that will be something I pick up over the summer, and maybe some "Burn Notice" as well.

[personal profile] kazbaby: How are you so awesome? :D

Frequent exposure to all of you guys, of course. (And David Hewlett!) ;)

[personal profile] highlander_ii: How many licks does it take to get to the center of a Tootsie Roll Pop?

If you're the Emperor, AKA my goofball son, it takes at least 3-4 iterations of pulling it out of one's mouth, regarding its shrinking size, and asking one's mother, "Can I crunch it yet?" That doesn't even take into account if he's putting all his attention to sucking or is distracted by shiny things.

[personal profile] sam_gamgee: Are you coming to Shore Leave this year?

I intend on coming back to Shore Leave one of these years, but my summer is already ridonkulously booked up, with Vancouver in less than a month (WHEEEEEE), Vividcon (WAHOOOOOO) and the Chicago Creation con (YESSSSS) in August, as well as various weddings, reunions (20 years since HS graduation? EEP!), and family stuff. Say hi to Tricia Helfer for me!

[personal profile] nakedwesley: Whatever happened with the whole stolen van thing?

Well, it was recovered, reeking of smoke and with a ton of crap inside, including lots of interesting evidence we found on a Saturday evening that we turned over to the police the following Monday morning. The police proceeded to bitch us out for the delay, which just about blew my mind. The damned van was in police custody for almost a week; it was not our fault that their Southern IL cohorts couldn't be bothered to look. I figured at that point the chain of evidence had been broken and the asshole(s) responsible were long gone, anyway, so what did it matter? But since then, we haven't heard a damned thing, and trust me, the van has been parked in the garage every night since.

[personal profile] elderwitty: What book or series could you reread limitless times and enjoy every time?

I used to read David Eddings' Belgariad and Mallorean series at least once a year when I was younger, but nowadays I just don't reread as much as I used to. I'd say the one that I enjoy the most going back to (usually the previous 2-3 books to prep for the latest released volume) is Jim Butcher's Dresden Files. Now that I'm almost done with it (*sob*), I may add Lois McMaster Bujold's Vorkosigan Saga to the list.

[personal profile] cee_m: SUPERNATURAL... just sayin'

The boys are very pretty, I know, but they don't seem to treat their female cast that well. Plus, you really don't want my TV curse brought to bear on a show you love. I'm already on thin ice with all my favorites.

Happy Friday, everybody!
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My brain has left the building, so I thought I'd ask some nosy questions of you all. Everybody likes a poll, right?

This way to the poll! )
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It's been over two months since the author reveals at [livejournal.com profile] mcshep_match. I feel bad that I never responded to the many glorious comments I received. So I come to you, my all-knowing peeps, to help me decide what to do.

Open to: Registered Users, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 13


Do I respond to the comments?

View Answers

YES. Better late than never.
9 (69.2%)

YES. You are ridiculously rude in letting it go this long.
0 (0.0%)

NO. Statue of limitations ran out on that a while back - no one cares now.
0 (0.0%)

NO. You're making too big a deal out of it - move on.
1 (7.7%)

Maybe? If you want to, do it. Otherwise, whatever.
5 (38.5%)

YAY FOR TICKY!
9 (69.2%)



Thanks for the input.
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Today, I do NOT enjoy being a girl. Stupid cramps.

Various points of interest...

Peter Callesen – A Single Sheet of Paper. Amazing art - the visualization that went into planning some of these pieces would break my concrete-thinking brain.

Diane Duane's The "Tale of the Five" Omnibus now in electronic form. I'm hoping that the more of these she sells, the higher the likelihood that we'll get the last book, The Door into Starlight.

[personal profile] isagel's On Your Every Body (Though Your Skin Will Come Unmarked), a hot as BLAZES Inception fic, where Eames shows off his genderplay abilities to a very appreciative Arthur. DAMN.

After the Twitter problems of last week, I found Twazzup to use as a Twitter reader. I really like it. It includes snapshots of links and picture thumbnails and makes it easy to retweet and reply. The only thing I wish it had was a similar way to display the original Tweet being replied to.

Clash of the Geeks. A list of notable geeks wrote fanfiction about a ridorkulous picture commissioned by John Scalzi. The collected stories are available for download and donations are encouraged to benefit the Lupus Alliance of America.


A question for those of you with Wiis: do you have the Balance Board and use Wii Fit Plus? I missed a NewEgg deal on the bundle this week, and I'm wondering if it's worth it to buy one at full price. Anything that makes exercise fun is very appealing.

I think the ibuprofen is finally starting to kick in. It would be nice to start the weekend without wanting to curl up into a ball. Hope you all have a fun one!
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You all have seen the change in the schedule, right? It's a bit of shuffling, but at least Flanigan can make it.

Also, I still have an adjoining room booked in addition to the one [livejournal.com profile] darsynia are sharing - does anyone want it before I cancel the reservation? If you want to bunk in our room, we still have space, too.

I know everyone is coming in a different times. Should we try to make a plan for dinner on Friday night? I'll be bringing my minivan, so I can haul several people if we want to go farther than walking distance.

This is gonna be so much fun, guys!
grammarwoman: A quote from the Emperor's Sea book (Imperial goldfish)
Sometimes I high-five myself for doing such a good job raising the Emperor, and other times I feel grossly under-qualified.

For example: a couple of weeks ago at pickup, one of his preschool teachers recapped an incident from that day. The Emperor and a friend of his were holding hands in line, and the other little boy said to my son, "I love you! Let's get married." To which the Emperor replied, "We'd have to move to a different country. Illinois doesn't let two boys get married." I was so gleefully gobsmacked at this that I totally failed to get a read on the teacher, if she was amused, amazed, or scandalized. I was just happy that he both took the proclamation of love in stride and remembered the one dinner conversation we'd had on the subject months ago.

It's amazing what sticks. It's so refreshing when it's information like that and not inappropriate Futurama quotes. (Like when the husband wore his Bender T-shirt yesterday that proclaims "Bite my shiny metal ass!" and the Emperor read it out loud at the dinner table, asking if that was correct.) His teacher told him that he shouldn't watch Futurama because it's an adult show. The way I figure it, at least he's not watching "reality" shows and hopelessly confused about fact versus fiction.

Playing with Legos the other day, he asked me if the universe has a floor. I stumbled my way through a response for that. I don't know that that question would have even occurred to me at five, let alone that I would have asked it.

His current favorite thing ever is Rescue Heroes, a donation from the son of a coworker. I have to say, the cartoons are pretty good; they pass the Bechdel test, they have multiple POC and women as the heroes, and there are no villains, just accidents and bad weather. Plus, the theme has a kicky techno beat.

He's getting so independent, too! He insists on brushing his teeth all by himself, and washes himself at bath-time, only letting me scrub his back. He gets dressed independently most mornings, and lets me sleep in on the weekends as long as I get him breakfast and something to watch on TV.

On a more distressing front, though, the Emperor's started saying on a regular basis how much he hates life, and how he can't wait until he and/or everything is dead, because life is so hard. Usually 10 minutes later he'll be laughing at something, so it's not like he's moping around all the time, but I really have no idea what to do about it. Is this a phase that will pass? Should I be rushing him to a therapist? Will kindergarten distract/entertain him enough that he won't feel that way anymore?

As it is, I'm worrying way too much about kindergarten and it doesn't even start for a couple of weeks. When I registered him a couple of days ago, the teacher was hawking a LeapFrog alphabet DVD. I told her that he didn't need it as he's already reading. Plus, she was surprised when I asked about gifted testing. Even though it's on the school website as being available for grades K-6, apparently they don't pull kids for the special classes until 2nd grade. My husband and I both have a bad history of being bored underachievers in school; I don't want that for him. What I need to do is find out from my dad what the magic words are to use with a teacher that fosters a "let's work on this together" attitude and not the "I'm a difficult, crackpot parent who thinks you suck" one.

Woo, Friday! We had way too much fun at the in-laws the past couple of weekends (bounce house AND swimming), so I'm looking forward to a low-key time at home, though I think the Emperor is going to be disappointed. If we could get some tolerable weather for working outside, that would be sweet as well.
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Here's the thing: like some/many/most of you, I've been telling myself stories in my head since I can remember, usually stories inserting me into the movies/books/TV shows I loved, or RPF where I got to interact with my objects of crushdom. I never even heard of fanfic until, huh, the mid-to-late 90s or so? Sometimes I feel decades behind all y'all, which is so ridiculous considering I've had an email account since 1990. (I am utterly and woefully ancient.)

Every so often, the characters take off and become people in their own right, with full-fledged backstories and futures and feelings, FFS. They stand around in my head like they're waiting for the literary bus, chatting at me the whole time. At what point can you point and say, here this was me, obviously committing an act of grievous self-insertion, but now, wait, she's all growed up and her own original personal character, really truly?

Nattering on idtastic navel-gazing )

Why do the OCs have to be SO DAMNED LOUD )

It's like I'm waiting for the authorities to issue an authorial bull saying "You have our permission to suck...but we hope you won't."

*Razzer-frazzer* head. Why couldn't you just be content with churning out the stories, and stop demanding that I set them free?
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The husband just called me for the umpteenth time since he started working at his current job, emotionally strung out because his boss is a vicious asshole.  Said boss chose to blame a tech's failure to show at a client site and a cascade of other departments' failure to notice it on my husband.  Said boss forced my husband to fucking sign an HR complaint that he is insubordinate and derelict in his duties.  This is the second such piece of bullshit the Boss has perpetrated on Husband in the past couple of weeks.
Pertinent details and bile )

I advised my husband to get the fuck out of there for today and go home, and tomorrow set up a meeting with Boss' Boss to talk about what Husband can do.

Anyone have any suggestions for framing the conversation in a productive (and hopefully job-retaining) way?  I've already told him that I'm behind him quitting, but I don't know if that will be any kind of effective, for lack of a better word, threat to improving his immediate situation.

Any and all help would be appreciated.

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I got told this morning to test the hell out of the software, then this afternoon got my head snapped off for finding more bugs. Welcome Friday afternoon surfing!

As prompted by [livejournal.com profile] inlovewithnight, some thoughts on Anywhere But Here (AKA I'd rather be...):

1) In a deluxe home theater setup, sharing a couch with David Hewlett, with delicious entrees and plenty of alcohol, and SGA playing on a big screen as he dishes on the behind-the-scenes and I laugh.

2) In a deluxe home theater setup, sharing a couch with Tahmoh Penikett and Katee Sackhoff, with delicious entrees and plenty of alcohol, and BSG playing on a big screen as they dish on the behind-the-scenes and I laugh.

3) Greeting the Clean House crew at my front door, who will proceed to help me decrappify and organize my house. Rooms to improve: the basement, the TV room, and the play area in the loft.

4) In a week-long spa retreat somewhere, with massages, exercising that's actually fun, and panels on topics of fandom interest.


How about you guys?
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Ugh. The Emperor woke up several times last night, complaining about his legs hurting (probably because he rolls over and into the wall with plenty of concussive force). Of course, he was perfectly fine this morning. Me, I'm a little tired.

He had awesome days at daycare both Friday and yesterday, which I'm fairly sure can be attributed to the fact that a third of his class is gone for spring break. If all it takes is a smaller classroom...Yeah.

Meanwhile, I'm still reeling from the overwhelming numbers of people who are raging online against the BSG finale. I absolutely loved it, and I'm shocked that so many people didn't. The disparity left me off-kilter all day yesterday. I mean, I'm not one to suppress anyone else's opinion, but it made me feel all defensive and wondering if we'd seen the same show. I had one small thing I would have liked to have seen Hell no I won't spoil ), but honestly, they wrapped up everything I wanted and stuff I never even expected to be revisited. I thought it was a thrilling emotional rollercoaster. I also had the treat of watching it on the gorgeously huge projector screen at [livejournal.com profile] the_sween and [livejournal.com profile] hecateuse's place, in a crowd of fans who all seemed to think as highly of it as I did, so that also colored my experience. I just don't understand the harsh responses.

For those of you that saw it, what did you think?

*blink*blink*blink* I hate being this foggy at the end of the work day, with hours yet to go until the Emperor's bedtime. I'm aiming to get to sleep on time tonight, that's for damned sure.
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I am tired, y'all. A big part of it is my insistence on sabotaging myself at night -- when I look at the time and it's 11 PM, I should be thinking "Wrap it up!" Instead, I try for one more thing and the next time I look, it's almost midnight.

But then on top of that, there's days like today, where it seems like everyone is getting beaten down. One friend's company is getting shut down, another is getting impossible-to-follow advice from her doc, and this morning I got a call from daycare, asking me to come in for a conference about the Emperor. "Have you thought about seeing a physician?" they ask me, worried that yesterday he hit a friend and today he was running around the room and yelling. "Have you considered that he's an active 4-year-old boy who wants to run around?" I want to scream at them.

I don't want him to get booted from this daycare, because it's been a fabulous experience for him for the most part. He's thriving academically, and his language skills have improved by leaps and bounds since he's moved up to the next class, but his current teachers (as I've complained before) are not my ideal. I'm wondering how it would be received if I were to suggest to them that maybe he would be a better fit in a different class. I'm also pondering if it would be rude to ask them if the teachers were parents themselves, and if they have any experience raising little boys.

I talked to my dad about this a while back, and he rolled his eyes and said that he thought the Emperor was just being a gifted little boy. He suggested I read The Trouble with Boys. Maybe I'll find a copy and bring it with me to the meeting on Friday.

I hate confrontation.
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Here I am, slow as always to jump on the memewagon.

1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me!"
2. I will respond by asking you five questions. I get to pick the questions.
3. You may (if you so desire) post the answers to the questions (and the questions themselves) on your blog or journal.
4. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

These are my responses to [livejournal.com profile] resolute's questions.

Pull up a chair and read a while… )
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Hey! Hey! Hey, flist, how are you?

You know what I love about December? The likelihood of snow goes way up. I do love snow. Or maybe not. )

You know what I hate about December? Everything else. Except my Space Battle tree. )

So really, with all this dancing in my brain, plus my current project at work entering the testing phase and due to be ready the first week of January, my plate is pretty full, right?

Why, then, did I sign up for THREE fic challenges, all due in the next three weeks? What the hell possessed me to think that was a smart idea? AAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!

At least I have sketchy mental outlines for all of them, and the first ones started. But I'm seriously lacking in betas. Any volunteers for:blipped in case one of the mods or my targets are perusing here )
Please?

Oh, and in closing: Flying Spaghetti Monster Holiday greetings to you all!
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Well, there's nothing like getting the stick after the carrot. I glumly decided that I couldn't justify the Burbank trip, what with the economy tanking and making muddy the solid financial ground I thought we'd found. Then the husband's car broke AGAIN, and yeah, it looks like we're going to have another case of happy bonus money being eaten by mundane costs.

This is on top of entering week five of cold symptoms, and having the PA diagnose it as a combination of cold and allergies. (I staunchly maintain that this doesn't feel like any case of allergies I've had before, since I don't want to scratch my face off, but the chest congestion is driving me batty.) Plus the husband is on antibiotics for his own sinus infection, and the Emperor's birthday is in two weeks and 75% of the prospective guest list have already canceled, and I'm evidently insane because I'm actually pondering hosting Christmas this year, and...the brain, it just doesn't stop.

However, I am bound and determined to find some silver lining here, so I am by gum going to get myself a new laptop.

Of course, now this opens up a huge Vista* of dithering. I'm pretty sure I'm going to go PC rather than Mac, as much as I still feel brand loyalty to the latter company. I'm poking around the Dell site, especially the outlet deals, but there are so many choices for my limited brain power! My needs list is: supports basically unlimited online surfing, including as many YouTube offerings in a row as I want; runs Microsoft Office; supports whatever software I need to start vidding; wireless is a given; as big a hard drive and as much RAM as I can get; DVD RW drive; decent battery life.

I am useless when it comes to hardware, I know, and it's a willful blind spot. That's one of the reasons I count on my husband so much.

So, anybody feel like offering an opinion on computers, especially when it comes to specs and software to enable vidding?

* Vista = DO NOT WANT. Do they actually sell computers loaded with Windows XP anymore?
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Or, Advice sought from all-knowing flist

I like Farscape. Shocker, I know. )

Why is this relevant?

Shore Leave + Chicago Stargate con = $$$ )

Farscape fans are dirty rotten pushers )

I did my best to squash any thoughts of regret, though. I’d had my two cons. I was done. The household budget had been strained enough for my whims.

Then…then came the last couple of weeks. The husband started working again full-time (Angels sang! Rainbows sparkled! A chorus of Hallelujahs abounded!), and we had hope again for being financially solvent. And then we got a letter and check from a family member who was sharing the wealth. A big check. A Significant Amount of Moolah check.

And a little, quiet voice of (burbank. *sigh*) instantly turned into a tantrum wail of "I WANNA GO TO THE FARSCAPE PARTY IN BURBANK!".

I am so frelling torn.

I'm not easy, but I'm certainly cheap. OK, maybe I am easy. )

Picture John Crichton on one shoulder and Scorpius on the other )

I need help (well, that’s a constant and a given). I need advice. What do you think, flist: do I sigh regretfully and sock the money away, being nobly practical about it all, or do I give flight to my fangirl dreams and blow a lot of money on my sparkly Farscape party?

Da poll! Da poll! )

I know how absolutely ridiculous this is, believe me. Of all the First World problems to have, this is small and petty and stupid to even consider. But…but…it is what it is: something about which I am well and truly torn.

ETA: OK, there's SUPPOSED to be a poll. There's a poll code and everything. WTF, poll?

ETA2: OK, so the husband is pointing out that I could get a new computer for the money. DAMMIT. I didn't need the water to be muddier...
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I picked up a cold at the family gathering this past weekend (it was worth it, though - lots of quality hanging out and the niece loved the grab-bag of clothes from the last swap). I feel like a human lava lamp as my sinuses slowly fill up and then drain. I think I'm losing brain power with every tissue I use.

I have to keep reminding myself that, as I stayed home from work yesterday, today is in fact Tuesday and not Monday. My biggest accomplishment today will be catching up with my flist. I am so glad that I'm in the screen mockups phase of the project, rather than any coding. Trying to program right now would be the electronic equivalent of operating heavy machinery: chance of crashes = HIGH.

Wow. I'm not even on the good cold medicine, and I'm all floaty and stuff. If my comments make less sense than usual, you know why.

I'm thinking of trying a neti-type sinus wash tonight. The intarwebs tell me I should use a combination of 1 quart of water to 1 teaspoon of non-iodized salt and 1 teaspoon baking soda. Any of you have other recipes to share?

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