Spinning on that dizzy edge

Well, the Fembots vid has been submitted to the VVC queue, hopefully arriving in a viewable fashion. I'm not done done with it; the credits are bare bones, there are still a few clips that need tweaking, and I have vidder's remorse of sources that didn't get included but should have. I winced even as I hit submit, because I knew if I didn't let it go I'd be tweaking things and re-rendering into the wee hours of the morning, and I was already past the deadline. Plus, I'm paranoid about the sizing and aspect ratio; I have no idea how much Sony Vegas automagically took care of for me in stringing together the completely disparate sizes, and if it's going to appear acceptably or as utter garbage on the projection screen. (Holy crapballs, was it a wide range of sizes!)

Many thanks to sabaceanbabe and kass for supportive squee, and jetpack_monkey for valuable source info and feedback. You guys are the best! Also, much love and gratitude to my husband for putting up with me pouring all my free time into my endeavor, and watching new versions and cheering me on as I wondered if it was worth it.

But for now, I can let my brain idle back down from my obsessive 24/7 vid-focus and actually get some other stuff done, like my reading page, the emails that have stacked up, and, I dunno, some actual work for this job that pays me.

...Wait, how do I do this life thing again?

It's been a weird week for me. Work has been lovely and quiet, with a glacially slow queue of requests, so I've been able to catch up on everything that got backlogged with my con weekend. I'm enjoying the heck out of people's renewed efforts to post more often; it feels like old times. The conference at the Emperor's school yesterday went well, and he seems to be in good hands.

But it's also been really hard in other ways. I strained or otherwise tweaked something in my upper back, so it's been sore for days now and getting better too damned slowly. I'm trying be patient with the husband's job search, or lack thereof, while also being anxious about pondering a job switch myself. We've got home repairs looming, new windows and exterior painting, that keep getting pushed off, when I just want them DONE already.

But the biggest thing has been my due date that came and went this week; emotionally, I'm still getting over the loss. I've stopped checking FB on any kind of regular basis so I don't have to see people announcing pregnancies, or posing with their new babies, or getting on with their seemingly charmed lives. I still cringe at going through store ads with baby sections. I have to put on a stoic face every time my coworker talks about his pregnant teenage daughter and her upcoming delivery.

I've been putting off going back to the infertility clinic, what with my weight gain and my dread of going the whole process again with even worse odds, but I think I need to, if only to get unstuck and start moving on.

I've also been poking at ideas for a vid, about miscarriage and loss and other problems on the path to motherhood, but I can't tell if it's rubbing salt in the wound or will wind up being therapeutic.

I hope this long weekend lets me displace my frustrations into attacking the craphole that my house has become. Getting off the damned couch should solve several problems at once.

I hope you all have an enjoyable weekend full of good things.

Oh, for a beautiful copy of "The Avengers"!

Because right now, I am possessed with the desire to vid the hell out of it to a bunch of the songs on Queen's album "A Kind of Magic". "One Vision" for the triumphant team in action! "A Kind of Magic" for the gratuitous Tesseract phlebotinum and Asgardian technology! "Gimme the Prize" for Loki! "Princes of the Universe" for all the insanely hot people in this movie (though it would also make for an epic Thor vid)!

This is what I get for having my brain immersed in Avengers GIFs and party posts for the last week.

In preparation for making a vid for the upcoming Chicago Creation con, I re-ripped all of my SGA DVDs (stupid external HD literally crashed, from the table to the tile floor, thanks to the Emperor) at a leisurely pace. Then I looked at the due date and had a panic attack.

The result is, I've spent the last week immersed in vidding and finally came up for air today. I haven't kept up with anything or anyone, I'm low on sleep, and I feel a little out of touch with the world, but my first draft is done!

Anyone want to beta a goofy SGA vid? It's two minutes long, so it's not a huge commitment of time.

Thanks!

(Now, off to conquer my reading lists...)

Hi! It turns out that I took an inadvertent 10-day vacation from DW/LJ, for no apparent reason other than my brain went into hiding and wanted to do nothing more than play lots of Mafia Wars and work on a thing. So now I'm slowly but surely catching up on the backlog. Eep!

( I conned! )

( I vidded! )

( I dreamed! (It was much better than CATS...) )

...I vidded. This is still delightful and amazing to me.

...Because it surely isn't here at work.

Friday! Long Weekend! Wheeeeee....

Another in a series of my brain desperately ducking out of thinking about Practical Things:
New idea for a vid -- "Firestarter", by The Prodigy, devoted to the antics of our favorite Nebari, Chiana. If anyone is a twisted firestarter, it's her.

And because it made me giggle ridiculously:

"Sexyback", Justin Timberlake, Sheppard serenading McKay (yup, another one). "You see the shackles", "Take 'em to the bridge", "I think you're special, what's behind your back?"...well, it makes sense in MY head. *grin*

Another one for the archives:

"A Little Less Conversation (JXL Remix)", Elvis Presley. A Stargate inclusive vid, with the jocks versus the nerds. How many times has O'Neill cut off Daniel or Sam in the middle of a lengthy explanation? How often has Sheppard told McKay to talk less, run more?

"A little less conversation, a little more action please" just begs for it. Plus, "Close your mouth and open up your heart and baby satisfy me" -- implied hookups!

Why, yes, I am avoiding work.

More mental housekeeping...

"Miss Independent", Kelly Clarkson, a Sam Carter SG vid. (The trick would be deciding who to pair her with for the "fell in love" part: the canon choice of Jack, the goofy choice of McKay, or the personally pleasing choice of Mitchell? I've got time to decide.)

"Little Red Corvette", Prince, a John Sheppard loves his puddlejumpers (and maybe Ascended women) vid.

This goes in the list of things my mental vidder would love to do:

"Beautiful People" by Marilyn Manson, an "All my Fandoms" vid. Gods, who wouldn't I put in it? La Femme Nikita, Farscape, Jake 2.0, John Doe, SG-1, SGA, BSG, T:TSCC, Buffy, Angel, Firefly, Dark Angel, Pushing Daisies, Highlander, Forever Knight, B5, ST:DS9, Veronica Mars, Heroes, Kindred: The Embraced...and that's just the TV shows with sci-fi/fantastical overtones. Any obvious oversights? (Note: I don't watch Smallville or Supernatural, and I'm trying to forget that I once liked Charmed. Birds of Prey is Right Out [Damn you, Dina Meyer!].) ETA: Of course, how could I forget Doctor Who, Alias, X-Files, and Twin Peaks?

"Black Tongue" by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs, for "Veronica Mars". "Boy you're just a stupid bitch and girl you're just a no-good dick."

Latest idea: "Figured You Out" by Nickelback for a Cam/Daniel twisted SG-1 vid.

Also floating through my head: "She Drives Me Crazy" by Fine Young Cannibals, starring Chiana (Farscape),
"What a Wonderful World" with John Crichton, and "She Hates Me" by Puddle of Mudd with John/Aeryn. Or McKay/Carter.

AGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH! STOP IT! DO NOT WANT!

(It's very odd to find "Dragula" soothing, if only because someone else did the vid for that. Silly brain.)

ETA: Now I've got Starbuck in "Never Gonna Come Back Down". *whimper* Is it ever going to be safe to listen to music again?