Spinning on that dizzy edge

1. Friday! Friday Friday Friday!
2. The dream that I showed up to my job interview in a sleepshirt and no bra, spouting inane reasons why I wanted to work there, was thankfully only a dream.
3. The sunrise on the frosted grass at the park sparkling like diamonds. (Alternate simile: like the glittered carpet of a jewelry store at the mall.)
4. Taking off early today to run a bunch of errands.
5. Garden planning.

I got my walk in this afternoon, and it was delightful. I was bundled up in two layers from head to toe; the only part of the cold that was bothersome was my nose running, but that's what pocket tissues are for.

Here we are tipping over into February, and it turns out I am still nursing resentment from the holidays. I took off from work the week between Christmas and New Year's, and from the span of December 21st to January 1st I think I got all of a day as an actual vacation. The rest was spent decorating, cooking, shopping, wrapping, planning, driving, and being at other people's houses. My mom and dad were super grateful, even as it was occasionally weird and hard and awful without my brother there, but...*Sigh* And then my in-laws made me want to scream due to ongoing shenanigans and drama.

So I need to work on letting that go, which is hard, because I can nurse a grudge like nobody's business. I'm prescribing myself deep cleansing breaths and making lists of gratitudes. Like:

1) Our furnace has soldiered on like a trouper through this cold.

2) We had enough food in the house that we didn't have to make any emergency store runs.

3) I have a treadmill so I can get my steps in regardless of the weather.

4) The bills are paid and will continue to be paid for the foreseeable future.

5) Circumstances aside, it's nice having both of my boys home with me as I work.

6) I am lucky to have you guys as a sounding board and Team Me. Thank you!

TGTF!