Never could get the hang of Mondays
Oct. 3rd, 2011 04:11 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
grammarwomanThere are times like today where I really, really miss being in school. Elementary, junior high, high school, college - any of them sound good right about now. School was all about structure and payoff. I knew what was expected of me, my days were scheduled from beginning to end, and when I did a good job, at the very least I got a high grade to acknowledge it. Plus, I was only responsible for myself, and barring the occasional issues with a crappy teacher, I was in control of the results I got.
Nowadays, I have a kid, dog, husband, and resident brother-in-law as immediate concerns, not to mention the once-removed circle to keep tabs on, like my aging parents, my brother and his rocky marriage, all the in-laws (some days I agree with my dad that it would have been much easier to marry an orphan), and the friends I rarely get to see.
The husband is going through seasonal depression/transition issues. The Emperor is veering wildly between great days and horrible days at school, and school is mildly shaming me (technically both parents, but since they can only reach me...) for his bad days by asking if he's gotten enough sleep. Which I wouldn't fault them for so much, because heaven knows they've got their hands full being his support crew during the day, but I'm trying so fucking hard to manage everything and no one notices it, let alone gives me the equivalent of a gold star.
Trying to distract myself from how stressed out I am sets me up for a vicious cycle where I stay up too late watching TV and staying on top of my reading lists, so I'm tired and even more emotionally off-kilter the next day.
I just want someone to acknowledge that I'm working hard and give me an A for effort. *sigh*
I hope things are going better for you all.
Nowadays, I have a kid, dog, husband, and resident brother-in-law as immediate concerns, not to mention the once-removed circle to keep tabs on, like my aging parents, my brother and his rocky marriage, all the in-laws (some days I agree with my dad that it would have been much easier to marry an orphan), and the friends I rarely get to see.
The husband is going through seasonal depression/transition issues. The Emperor is veering wildly between great days and horrible days at school, and school is mildly shaming me (technically both parents, but since they can only reach me...) for his bad days by asking if he's gotten enough sleep. Which I wouldn't fault them for so much, because heaven knows they've got their hands full being his support crew during the day, but I'm trying so fucking hard to manage everything and no one notices it, let alone gives me the equivalent of a gold star.
Trying to distract myself from how stressed out I am sets me up for a vicious cycle where I stay up too late watching TV and staying on top of my reading lists, so I'm tired and even more emotionally off-kilter the next day.
I just want someone to acknowledge that I'm working hard and give me an A for effort. *sigh*
I hope things are going better for you all.
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Date: 2011-10-07 06:51 pm (UTC)I'm not feeling less stressed, but maybe I should be. Hugs, sympathy, and respect in any case.
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