Cavalcade of FEEEEELS
Feb. 6th, 2017 10:50 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
grammarwomanOh my goodness, what a difference a week makes! I am officially off all meds, though still resorting to my inhaler multiple times a day. I am sleeping through the night! Every night! I forgot what it was like to not be afraid of my bed and the night time. Sleep is where I'm a Viking, y'all.
I had thought my last appointment set up by the walk-in clinic PA was with a pulmonologist, but evidently I was not tracking what she was saying, and wound up seeing a regular internal medicine doc to be my new primary. She was very nice, listened to everything, and rattled off all the things I should be doing. So I'm set up with a mammogram, a consult on a colonoscopy (she was a little skeptical when I said I needed one, then nodded grimly when I told her about my brother), and a request to the insurance company to get a more in-depth scan based on an irregularity with my Xrays. I feel like I should get so many adulting points for all of that.
The Emperor went to his first school dance last Friday, and he was super nervous! But the girl that he is friends with and interested in (and that he says the whole school ships him with, WHAT) was there, and they had fast and slow dances together, and he was positively glowing when I picked him up at the end. I'm bracing for impact into the teen years, but it was so sweet, and he was so happy. It's nice when I tell him to take risks and have them pay off like that. :)
Because sometimes I fall down in the adulting department, we are crunching hard and fast towards a deadline in a couple of weeks of his application to the lab high school here in town that's attached to the university. If I had planned better, we would have spaced it out for months and avoided such pressure. The application is full of writing, which is his nemesis, but it would be such a great opportunity for him if he gets in. If it doesn't work out this year, he can apply again next year, so it's not as stressful as it could be. I'm restraining myself to butt out as much as possible for the content; it's really hard.
Meanwhile, just this past week I realized something completely awkward about one of my Festivids, and I am positively writhing in embarrassment about it. It's a rookie-level faux pas that I can't believe anyone hasn't commented on yet, or at least in venues where I can see. I will be issuing a profuse apology when reveals go up and hope that I don't expire from shame before then. UGH.
I am also struggling with being swamped in waves of guilt for not having yet put away my holiday decorations and generally failing in keeping the house clean. It's like the angel and devil trope on my shoulders, with one gently pointing out that I've been sick for a month, and the other savagely poking me with accusations of laziness and crap housekeeping skills.
But sleep! I can haz it! G'night everybody.
I had thought my last appointment set up by the walk-in clinic PA was with a pulmonologist, but evidently I was not tracking what she was saying, and wound up seeing a regular internal medicine doc to be my new primary. She was very nice, listened to everything, and rattled off all the things I should be doing. So I'm set up with a mammogram, a consult on a colonoscopy (she was a little skeptical when I said I needed one, then nodded grimly when I told her about my brother), and a request to the insurance company to get a more in-depth scan based on an irregularity with my Xrays. I feel like I should get so many adulting points for all of that.
The Emperor went to his first school dance last Friday, and he was super nervous! But the girl that he is friends with and interested in (and that he says the whole school ships him with, WHAT) was there, and they had fast and slow dances together, and he was positively glowing when I picked him up at the end. I'm bracing for impact into the teen years, but it was so sweet, and he was so happy. It's nice when I tell him to take risks and have them pay off like that. :)
Because sometimes I fall down in the adulting department, we are crunching hard and fast towards a deadline in a couple of weeks of his application to the lab high school here in town that's attached to the university. If I had planned better, we would have spaced it out for months and avoided such pressure. The application is full of writing, which is his nemesis, but it would be such a great opportunity for him if he gets in. If it doesn't work out this year, he can apply again next year, so it's not as stressful as it could be. I'm restraining myself to butt out as much as possible for the content; it's really hard.
Meanwhile, just this past week I realized something completely awkward about one of my Festivids, and I am positively writhing in embarrassment about it. It's a rookie-level faux pas that I can't believe anyone hasn't commented on yet, or at least in venues where I can see. I will be issuing a profuse apology when reveals go up and hope that I don't expire from shame before then. UGH.
I am also struggling with being swamped in waves of guilt for not having yet put away my holiday decorations and generally failing in keeping the house clean. It's like the angel and devil trope on my shoulders, with one gently pointing out that I've been sick for a month, and the other savagely poking me with accusations of laziness and crap housekeeping skills.
But sleep! I can haz it! G'night everybody.
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Date: 2017-02-07 06:05 am (UTC)Also, yay for the Emperor!
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Date: 2017-02-07 03:31 pm (UTC)I was so relieved that my little man had a great time at his dance. Boy/girl relationships were a fraught subject for me at his age, so I can't help but hope that it goes much smoother for him.
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Date: 2017-02-07 03:10 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2017-02-07 03:31 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2017-02-07 03:52 pm (UTC)And tell the little devil on your shoulder to go suck an egg; you've been sick for a month. *HUG*
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Date: 2017-02-07 05:21 pm (UTC)Middle school was so hard for me when it came to socializing; I love that he has a group of friends and is having fun on the people front. I just have to keep breathing through all the milestones and bumps ahead.
Why are the brain weasels so resistant to logic? ARGH.
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Date: 2017-02-07 04:23 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2017-02-07 05:28 pm (UTC)It's such a relief, yes! I can only hope that successes like that lead to him trusting himself more (and his mom!) and taking further chances. :)
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Date: 2017-02-10 12:22 am (UTC)FYI, at least when I was at the local lab high school, they were trending downward in how many kids they let in that effectively skipped a grade. They still let in some, but it was a continual discussion of how many/if. At worst it's good practice for the application next year, but try to help him not be too distraught if he doesn't get in this year. It is a nasty competition.
Though he's close in age to the younger kids in the class!
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Date: 2017-02-10 02:47 am (UTC)Yeah, I think he's still unsure about the whole thing, so he's not as invested in it as I am, and I'm keeping a pretty good perspective about it. I think. :)