Mea maxima culpa

[grammarwoman]

The clinic visit went fine; the sonogram showed no cysts, and the nurse took the time to go over all my medications (3 prescriptions covering 4 injections a day) and questions. Then we signed what seemed like a mortgage's worth of consent forms. The one involving frozen embryos was quite the involved example of multiple worst case scenarios.

Before that, though...I really fucked up as a human being. I sent someone an email to congratulate them on some great news, and somehow so badly mangled a suggestion (coming from an event where I wished I'd chosen differently) that I horribly offended and upset them. I wish I could take it all back and just cut myself off with the congrats. When I have outbreaks of social anxiety, I worry over everything I say and post. Times like this are exactly the reason why.

If (when) I ever show my ass and grossly offend you, please know that I don't do it out of maliciousness. Sometimes I err on the side of not shutting up in time, and for that I'm really sorry. You are by no means responsible for instructing me when I'm wrong, but I sure would appreciate it if you did.

I'm staying up just late enough to outlast the jackass who's setting off fireworks so the dog doesn't completely lose it, and then I'm taking my overwrought ass to bed.

Comments

[kate]

Oh, sweetheart. <333 *hugs*

You had good intentions; if you sincerely apologize I'm sure it will be fine in time.

[grammarwoman]

Thank you. *HUGS*

I tried my best to apologize, but given how upset they were, I wouldn't be surprised if they deleted my reply without reading it. I just have to accept it and move on, you know?

[kate]

Oh, sweetheart, I'm sorry. :( *all the hugs*

[kass]

Yay for a good clinic visit!

Also, even if you offended someone, that doesn't equal fucking up as a human being. I promise.

*hug*

[grammarwoman]

I love the nurse I'm working with; I showed up and let her know how on edge I was (with my face bright pink from crying, because I am not a subtle crier), and she took it all in stride.

It sure felt like a colossal fuckup. *HUG*

[heresluck]

I'm glad the clinic visit went well and so sorry you're not happy with how you handled the congratulations. I've done enough similar things to know how much that sucks. *hugs*

[grammarwoman]

Thanks! *hug*

Sometimes, words and tone and timing are a perfect storm of regret. It's definitely noted for future reference. *sigh*

[umadoshi]

Before that, though...I really fucked up as a human being.

That's such a horrible way to feel. I have so much sympathy, and I hope it does work out with this person somehow. :/

[grammarwoman]

Thank you! Honestly, I would be OK with them just feeling better.

[mashimero]

Glad to hear that the visit went well!

I'm sorry to hear about the congratulations though. Hopefully the person will understand and things will work out *hugs*

[grammarwoman]

Thanks!

From their reaction, I don't know if things will ever be mended. I can hope, but I won't push it.