I HATE this about myself, the obsessive checking and counting and measuring up against others.
Awww, don't be so hard on yourself. We all do this. It's natural to want to compare yourself to others. The trick is to not let it paralyze you. You have to try not to let insecurity keep you from doing something you enjoy doing. Two things I can always fall back on: 1.) I always enjoy my own vids, regardless of what anyone else says. 2.) Even if you never hear from them, there is at least one other person out there who *loves* your vid, and if you hadn't made it, they wouldn't have been able to enjoy it. That keeps me going.
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Awww, don't be so hard on yourself. We all do this. It's natural to want to compare yourself to others. The trick is to not let it paralyze you. You have to try not to let insecurity keep you from doing something you enjoy doing. Two things I can always fall back on: 1.) I always enjoy my own vids, regardless of what anyone else says. 2.) Even if you never hear from them, there is at least one other person out there who *loves* your vid, and if you hadn't made it, they wouldn't have been able to enjoy it. That keeps me going.